My Journey to Great Awakening

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My Charity Experience

My Charity EXPERIENCE 

INSURANCE is better than CHARITY. The less money you have the less priority you are.

I was suffering from Joint pain that lasted for several months already. With flu and rashes for 5 days. So, I thought it was DENGUE, got my results and it was okay. But, my joint pain didn't go away for 3 weeks and so, I thought it's just sprain from my everyday zumba and marathon at home.

Sta. Teresita General Hospital

I did not even know PHILIPPINE ORTHOPEDIC CENTER is a government managed hospital, or better to tell a public hospital. All I knew it was the best place for ORTHO (BONES) which I was having problem with my bones, maybe, my scoliosis thing is connected.

Knees

To make the story short I wasted another week of waiting due to the Compete Blood Chemistry Test for Php2,000++ cost and XRAY request from my sport doctor from ADULT CLINIC. Take note, I haven't medicated yet, no RX was given. This is my first check-up and the doctor can't even help me for he does not have any records to rely to.

And so, another appointment came, got my records now, another doctor for OPD consulted me for 3 hours in line ...AGAIN for it was for free consultation. Before ending here in charity line, we were looking for my mother's old doctor, but he was not around, so we came. He saw my records and everything was not even serious except for the ESR was too high due to my joint pain. He recommended me to specialty doctor and that is the RHEUMATOLOGIST.

We came and hurriedly asking for the doctor but she was not around. The assigned nurse told us she left early, because, there's no patient to be waited. She prioritize her paid consultation to other clinic instead here. Though, it was extremely accepted. I don't have a choice for we came to this charity appointments.
Yup, we need to wait 4 more days for our Rheuma Doctor.
So, I was not medicated yet .. again!

And FINALLY, after 2 weeks of waiting. I was able to meet my RHEUMATOLOGIST, Dra. Gonzales. She diagnosed me of SLE, Lupus or auto immune disease. She gave everything I have to do, Oh, I mean I have to pay for. She told me that she would like to be cleared, so that she won't be missing anything.

Appoinement Card

 Let me check, from 3 HOSPITALS, I had XRAY, 3 CBC, Emergency CHECK UP at Capitol Medical Center, Another consultation fee in Sta. Theresita General Hospital, Multiple CBC Test, Compete Blood Chemistry Test for Php2,000++ cost and ANOTHER blood test for ESR and some.
Ouch! money goes AND I have not medicated yet ... again!

Of course, She gave RX that did not even help me and so, another appoinmentS" came. Take note I'm still in observation and monitoring. Still the same, came and check-up, another RX, but, this time I have to do the ULTRASOUND and ANA test. I'm so running out of money my true illness has not even found yet.

This is the most like WTF moment of my life.

I booked my appointment for less cost Ultrasound and reserve my slot it took 2 weeks for my time. And so the day came, I was with several practitioner doctors assisted me inside.While doing their job, the specialist or the older doctor was one doing the navigation. The other student doctor was at the side studying the process. Yup, they are studying me!

Like omg!, there's a lot of patients needed to be examined and it took me several minutes for the process because, I was your subject. I was hearing like, "You guys need to know your anatomy." ... "Okay, what part of muscle is this..?" Lol.

My father told me to look for other clinic like the usual expensive Php 500-700 per consultation and I refused. No offense, since internet has the power to voice it out. A lot of poor families suffered in "OTHER" public hospital due to student doctors are handling patients. Better to my experience, so far, Dr. Custodio one of the doctor of my Mother in Orthopedic, was the best in history making patients relieved without spending much. 

So, after 1 week. They want me back to get my results. GUESS WHAT! I waited for 2 hours at least, Like look, I have an appointment and I already paid this ULTRASOUND in 2 counters, why have not you interpreted it for a week before I came. SERIOUSLY!

Ultrasound Result Preview

I got little nervous. I was afraid that maybe my doctor will not stay, because, I am late. And so I decided, if she was not around, I will never come back.

It was a good story to add up here in my blog. And yeah, I ran when I got it. Luckily, she was chatting with the assign nurse and I was the late patient to be waited for, I had an appointed with her so, she should be. 

And she told me everything that I was clear. I am good. I am negative in Lupus and in any auto immune diseases. But, my severe joint pain is messing my ordinary day of living. It felt like not a normal person.

Then again, after all those examinations and medications expenses, It doesn't ease the pain. It is still painful since day one of me feverish rashes. So at the final judgement, she said it was probably CHIKUGUNYA, a virus from mosquito, but was not threatening like Dengue.

SO, YEAH it is CHIKUGUNYA, WHY?
My 2 brothers caught fever and rashes too while I'm having flu. She was right when she suspected me on the first consultation.

I made a lot of research about this. The fever and rashes will go for a week but, the virus residue will remain and hide inside the joints and it would take several months to years of sorrow. I was so hopeless. I paid so much and I have not yet medicated for good. She gave "another" medicine.

It was a long name and I forgot what it is. But this was my final visit.
She told me that she wanted to see me again, because, I'm still in monitoring stage. Well I am not suspecting that she's a student doctor. She's already a specialist and so...

I decided to quit. I lose a great amount of money. I don't know what to do. She advised me of taking that medicine for a month and go back with her. I just decided not.

My body was heavy medicated to any pain relievers I am drunk for. I am so done. I don't want it anymore. What would ever happened again if the medicine won't work?
Another medicine? Another money wasted?

...

I know some people had worst experience than mine. But this was a memorable learnings I have gone through. Some story I did not include. It was a journey that you don't want to ignore. Joint pain is not a joke symptoms but mine was so unfair.

I even remember that there was an old lady missed her previous appointment and came. She was not entertained and was told to go back to the next appointment. The doctor was really prioritizing her paid patients on other clinics. Then again, it was accepted.

You know what! GOD is GOOD. The NATURE and PURPOSE is really good.
Like seriously hear this one out, it knew that I don't have a good job for now, I don't even get paid much with my business, because, I'm still learning for it. Just like what I said, I don't even know that there's a free consultation in this said hospital. So, purposely happened.

Back in my beloved office, Unified Products & Services is a franchising company serves for Wellness products and Ecash pay center. One of my co-dealers told me that she just used FISH OIL and it healed her for 2 weeks. I have one bottle of fish oil from FREEBIES of franchise I made.

From THOUSANDS of peso, I healed from one 
FREE BOTTLE.
ha...haha.........ha!


I know I have to do it just to make sure I'm clear with this serious illnesses.
But yeah, life is unfair and not perfect, better learn from experience and be prepared for what's coming next.


To cut it short, because, it came too long, here some things I realized.

1. Laboratory examinations are just basis of your conditions. They will keep on asking to do more, because, they cannot rely on your current situations. They want updates and they won't stop if you feel pain. IT IS BUSINESS ... you need insurance for that.
2. It is right not to ignore simple symptoms. It could be a sign of a serious illness and you need insurance for that or less you'll be drained so bad.
3. Our body has its own natural healing process. Do not rely much to these synthetic drugs they have given you. You may try wellness or natural remedy instead.
4. I know we should not bypassing our doctors knowledge over a Google research but, I made my decision on cutting my expenses through researching. I just found out that CHIKUGUNYA is a simple illness, so I trust everything I knew, on how to heal myself.
5. Another healing powers is our mindset. It does help me more than I could ever imagine. I keep on thinking, praying, saying and imagining that I AM STRONG, I AM POWERFUL and I AM HEALED. and it bloody worked!
6. The more medicine you are taking, the more harmful it will do to your liver.
7. Life is so unfair. It is not perfect. Better to prepare for unforeseen circumstances like an accident, emergencies and any other MONEY INVOLVE problems.
8. INSURANCE is better than CHARITY. The less money you have the less priority you are.
9. LASTLY,.... you will declare to yourself that you'll end your life being poor once you landed and plead help on a public hospital. A lot of poor Filipinos dying in the emergency room, because of their status. Don't ever let your love ones die in their hands. Fight poverty and think about the future of your family.

PS. I am not against to this hospital. I am even more grateful for less fortunate people. I am not even against with my doctor. She gave me a lot and help for what I need. It's just hurtful to accept that it is their profession, job and it is purely business. Hospital and laboratories and the dark side of pharmaceutical companies business purpose, so it is better to try healing yourself in less harmful and less expensive way. Sorry, I did not came, that I think I should have, there's a reason why you need to come back, not for money but it is for health purposes.Thank you Philippine Orthopedic Center and specially, to Doctora.

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Meat stew in a Shabu-shabu way!

Have you ever cooked a meat stew in different way?
...in a different way?

   

Normally, we Filipinos, we cook our food in a process. But, my dad made a Filipino meat stew in a very unique way. He calls it, Shabu-shabu. It is not literally a Chinese Shabu-shabu with same set of ingredients and taste. He just called it like that because of these ways ...

Firstly, he cooked the pork with a lots of TARO! He just put salt and pepper to taste, because, the TARO gives the taste to the entire dish! No cooking oil!

 You may put broth cubes to make it tastier. 

Fried Shallots

This is great! Instead of putting onion while cooking the soup. He separately fried the small onions, "Shallots" and will be placed each on our bowls when we are already dining. This gives the final taste of the soup, tastes even better. 

As well with the Scallion and chili peppers to add the spice of the dish.

Spinach

The veggies will be your own choice. It would be better if there's plenty to choose for. We had this dish for several times and we sometimes change it like the photo below. It's a Chinese Cabbage.

Take note: The veggies are fresh. It'll cook when your soup is hot. You don't need to join them while doing the soup.

Simple healthy and elegant dish. 🍲

Let's talk about love. ♥

So, how is your heart today?

Yup, I'm talking about today not just on Valentines day. Do you still hope? Have you found your lucky one? or maybe, just gave up and let the time waste on doing what you love?

It doesn't matter how was yours doing as long as your taking good care of yourself. Your doing what you love, you know when to quit when it's not worth it and you know how to respect people. These 3 thoughts so far have taught me this month.

Let me share you my short story. ...

Freedom Wall

These pictures was my last day at work. I gained and lost people during my stay. But left me, I guess, the most valuable lesson I've ever learned.

Lesson 1: Why bad things keep on repeating? Because you NEVER learn.

Lesson 2: How can we be happy? Know what's right & wrong.

Lesson 3: How to gain respect? You start from yourself.

I know these are simple thoughts, but these made me realize completely how are we able to rule this unfair life that we keep on surviving. 

Let's avoid the situation might give us another trial for us to FINALLY learn, what's good or best for us. Read the signs, don't be blind. Being a martyr is old. We're living in a modern world where everything seems to go faster and gone quicker. So,

STOP WASTING TIME! 

Dessert Buffet

Simple celebration in our office. Isn't that cute? Didn't have a chance to get one. And we also have a simple celebration as we treated it our farewell get together.

Starbucks Reusable Cup

Before we meet up and had our last goodbyes. I've collected 5 promo coupons in just 1 week of my February and claimed my gift. Just a simple treat this Valentines Day for loving myself. 

It's actually simple pizza pool party. Though, it's not even a party. Just so you know, It took only an hour because other had plans already. It is better to had one last bond with your colleagues, no matter how simple it is, because there is no guarantee that you will ever see each other again. Make a one last good memory.

It was a hot love day. 💓 Perfect for this moment.

Well that's my one week of love, how about yours? And before anything else, I'd really, really! want to say so much about it but rather to keep it short & simple. 

Our life is so short. We have given a limited time to live. Better start learning from mistakes and try fixing your life. If not, when will you end wasting your time on someone or something that's keep shitting your life?

Talk to yourself! WHEN WILL YOU START using your brain? 💡

me? ... I just did.

My Mount Pamitinan Hike

Simply sharing my first time hiking experience on Mt. Pamitinan.
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A forgotten place that will never be forgotten.

Would you rather run away from your fears or would you rather face and fight for it?

        A sudden of unfortunate times that we encountered in our waking life. Most of the people had experienced hopeless times such as broken hearts, lost direction and many unpleasant realities throughout this imperfect world for our existence may never be perfect as what we planned. Is it really have to end and leave it behind? Majority of the people had done it when they had a new chance in life. Yet, there are people who never got out of it and it still haunts them.

        Life is a continuous learning process.You may never learned about the bad things had happened to you. For the crucial reason, we may have to go back to fix it, to learn for more or maybe to end it completely. Because, you may need to learn harder. So, I did. Those occurrences that what come up against us has a profound meaning that we may be needed to face it  for one more time, for our destiny.

        On the whole of it, It is the only way to end those fears that has bothered us for a long time. Every obnoxious happenings has a positive view that we could have acquired a valuable lessons at our disposal. Apparently, the only outcome of it, is freedom, that is what we always aim for, and I believe everything happens for a reason. 👑

St. Patrick's Day Green food Celebration ... ?

Looking into green stuff for this day? This stuffs are my ideas.

Today, I will make a spinach pesto pasta and a green smoothie.

Spinach Pesto Recipe                                                   Green smoothie

• 2 handful of Spinach leaves                                         ♣  1/2 head of broccoli
• 1 cup of basil leaves                                                         ♣  1/4 cup of spinach
• 1/4 cup of parsley                                                           ♣  2 cucumber
• 1/2 lemon juice                                                                ♣  An apple
• 8 teaspoons of olive oil                                                ♣   1/2 of lemon juice 
• 3 cloves of garlic                                                             ♣  Ice 
• 1 cup of milk                                                                    
• Bacon
• Cheese
• Salt and pepper to taste.

 Spinach and pesto pasta

1. Blend the solid ingredients until it looks like a pesto paste.
2. Cook the pesto paste in a pan to simmer the milk and the cheese.
3. Put salt and pepper to taste and the lemon juice.
4. Lastly, for garnishing, I chose bacon. And sadly, I forgot the Parmesan Cheese and it is perfect in any pesto dishes so, don't you ever forget it.

Green Smoothie 

1. Blend green smoothie ingredients with 1/4 cup of water.
2. You may add a cup of milk for more creamier taste but I did not, because, my pesto and my dip have a lot of calories already.

♣ LUCKY! I made it mate!♣

For the spinach and cheese dip recipe, It is just right after this post.

Yup, I maybe sound a little bit foolish, because, it is way too late for my St. Patrick's day celebration (Mar 17) and way too early for Earth day (Apr. 22). 

Well, At least I'm in between, right?!

So, Yeah It's an April FOOLS DAY gotcha! It is not Patrick's day okay fine, I'm not good at pranking.

Homemade shabu-shabu

Shabu-shabu restaurant is quite expensive but you can now control your OWN POT at home.

This is an old photo of our dinner. I think this idea is unique, so I thought of sharing it. I was thinking to blog it before, glad I saved some of it. So, as you can see, this is the basic choices in one dine. I have...

• 3 kinds of Noodles
• Thin meat cuts or seafoods ( I got Bulgogi.)
• Eggs for meat.
• 4 types of Veggies
• Fish cakes (fish/squid balls, kikiam, etc.)
• Tofu
• Noodle soup base (Dipping sauce)
• Hot Soup (broth)
• Induction Stove or rice cooker

I made my own dipping sauce and it's only a simple Soy Sauce, Sesame oil, lemon juice & garlic. But try to search for more or make your own, because I didn't liked the taste of it. Perhaps, you can buy a Noodle soup base in a bottle at the market. 

For the meat. I was looking for any thin slice and glad I found a Bulgogi at the supermarket.
If you're going to buy cheap meats you need to marinate it for the taste or you can just have seafoods as an alternative. Great to know that the fish cakes itself will definitely do for your meat and great for cheaper deal.

For the soup, I only put salt and broth cubes to make the taste. This is the soup for simmering your chosen food.
(YOU NEED A LOT FOR THIS ONE!)

It is really a UNIQUE dinner for your family. It was really fun to cook your own food in front of you while eating at home. It is quite convenient, because we only have one induction stove but we managed it.

Enjoy and Stay Healthy!

The leftover shabu-shabu was eaten a day after.

Adult Coloring (Art Therapy)

Remember the old times that we used to draw, paint or even color images for fun? Well, guess what, we can still do it now, not just for fun but to "improve our health".

First try of Mandalas

There is a lot of benefits and study in this year about the famous art theraphy through Doodling or making Mandalas. It is a trend not just for a simple hobby, but Psychologist claim it that is has a healing power.

Zendoodle

Doodle

Mandala

Big Images

I'm suffering on PTSD, anxiety, depression and stress and it helps. It also trains my brain to focus better. It is actually relaxing.

My main point of adult coloring is to change the negative thinkers into positive way by visioning colorful arts made by 

the patients. 

Any form of coloring will do. You can buy a book or just print it out. You can even look for old books and make your own art for a cheaper deal. I suggest to look for Mandalas or Zendoodle for advance level.